Letting go...

In every parting there is a shadow of death..
Death the ultimate...the abyss of no return..
Nothingness, meaninglessness, abrupt end..

However, human mind is in an eternal quest for the something after..
some meaning, some reason..a bit of logic
but death defies it all
carefully laid out plans...all reasoning...all meaning.

Death, leaves us first in numbness,
we lose the ability to think, to react, to act..
and then comes denial.
Denial of the truth that is staring us in face.
Denial of the fact that end does come without an epilogue.

So...We can't let go
We don't let go..
We do not accept....and...
We keep hoping for the nightmare to end..
and for our beloved to return.

Herein comes the necessity of performing the last rites..
whether it is touching the lips of your beloved with leaping flames,
the face you had held so lovingly in the palms of your hand...
or in...
hearing that ultimate, deafening thud of pebble on the coffin...
that is the mark of accepting...of letting-go.

Letting-go of that integral part of my life,
who was perhaps fighting with me over trivial issues even yesterday.
Letting-go of all hope of him ever returning to me.
Letting go of the delusion that I can have yesterday back...

He has moved on...he had to leave...What is the logic behind holding back a body, when the soul has departed?

Author: Jayeeta Sinha Roy